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Here is someone named Sam Brinton, now 27, who describes his experience in an article on conversion therapy that appeared in last Saturday’s edition of the British newspaper The Guardian:Can someone describe what exactly is involved in conversion therapy? We can talk about theory all we want, but what actually goes on?
When his father’s attempts to beat the gay feelings out of him failed, 11-year-old Sam Brinton was sent for conversion therapy.
“I was told I was the only gay left in the world, that the government had killed all the gay children, that I had Aids, that God hated me – a horrifying battery of lies which I had no reason not to believe because these were the people that were supposed to be helping me,” Brinton said.
Then came the physical torture: forcing his hands into ice while showing him pictures of men touching men, wrapping his hands in coils that heated up painfully when he saw images of men hugging, showing him gay porn and giving him electric shocks.
Several suicide attempts later, Brinton, the son of Southern Baptist missionaries, realised he had only one viable option if he wanted to carry on living.
“In the end I had to lie and say I was cured just to get out of it,” he said.
Brinton doubts he will ever completely be free of the trauma. “I’m definitely still processing. The hard part is because it happened long ago, a lot of it is mentally associated into my cognition. Therefore, every single time I shake a man’s hand or get a hug, I’ll have a small amount of shock hit me.
“It’s not that bad anymore, but I will probably bear the mental torture marks of conversion therapy for the rest of my life.
theguardian.com/world/2015/apr/11/survivors-crusade-conversion-therapy-ban-pray-gay-away“The hardest part was that I was trying so hard to change. Every night I was praying with every ounce of my body, trying to figure out a way to actually change so that the pain would stop. You definitely think that something’s wrong with you and that if you try hard enough you can beat it.”