Dear Marybeloved,
No one who was close to Jesus could fail to be wise, in the sense of enlightened, way beyond normal. However, as with many of the disciples, a lot of what Jesus said passed over Mary’s head, and on some of the deeper issues of his mission, she did not understand him.
Jesus may be our judge, but Mary may be our intercessor with Jesus. However, it should be noted that she has an uneven record in this regard. While she may have moved Jesus to turn the water into wine, later on, she was unsuccessful in altering his mind. You might feel that Jesus was being a bit hard on his mother at that point, but apparently he could not indulge her in more important matters affecting his mission.
One can only imagine the incredible things Jesus must have come out with when he was young, and how Mary thought and pondered on these things in her heart. After the annunciation to her by the angel Gabriel, Mary was naturally thrilled with expectation that her son would be a supernatural king. She probably saw her job as preparing him for the throne of David.
During his early ministry, no doubt she rejoiced in his success, but after Cana, her high spirit sank low. Nearer the end, when it all seemed to be going terribly wrong, she was very worried for her son. However, the spirit of defeatism was not Mary. She may have been a bit stoic, but she was always steadfast. Despite her natural motherly concern, she never wavered in her obedience to the requirements of her indwelling spirit of God, in submission to the cross of Jesus.
Mary was too smart for her own comfort, and I believe she saw/felt it coming. She tried to influence her son, because she thought he could just perform another miracle, and everything would be alright. She loved Jesus, despite the fact that she did not understand why it had to turn out that way. He could have performed a miracle, but it wouldn’t have been right, and the Father concurred with Jesus plan, in as much as it also fulfilled his will to teach his children on earth a lesson, heavy with meaning and emotional significance.
Mary had faith that Jesus knew the mind and the will of the Father, and she knew that he was one with the Father in their Spirit. She did not have our books, so she “watched what God did and obeyed perfectly,” but she suffered because she did not understand him, and the exclusively spiritual nature of his mission 2000 years ago.
Let’s face it, what happened to her son broke Mary’s heart, and she suffered terribly because she was not wise enough to understand. It is only in his return as Christ - the almighty supreme oversoul of all humankind (other religions included, if they will), that Mary’s vision will be fulfilled, and there will be an age of light and life - peace and harmony.
I don’t think the biblical Mary ever really lost faith in either Jesus or the Father, but she was deeply anguished for her son, and cruelly disillusioned by the turn of events that led to the crucifixion.
Vanity thy name is woman. Mary was a woman. Therefore, naturally Mary was vain? No! Mary was not vain. I think being close to Jesus made Mary go about with a permanent smile in the early days, but later, she may have had a premonition of the crucifixion, and was grief-stricken at the prospect she saw. As a dutiful parent, she tried to intervene, to implore Jesus to save himself and all his believers from the Sanhedrin and the Romans - not out of pride or pity for herself, but because she did not fully understand Jesus spiritual mission, and what it entailed.
I imagine that somewhere along the line, the nasty turn of events (which she must have foreseen to some extent with great foreboding), broke Mary’s heart. After all, the widow’s son was the love of her life.
I don’t think that Mary had any personal ambitions, but I think she was naturally ambitious for her son. Mary may have been a saint, but she was not a God, and what human mother would not have high expectations, after what she went through. Who in her position wouldn’t have expectations of worldly, as well as heavenly glory for such a Son?
Unfortunately, neither Mary nor the disciples fully understood that Jesus mission was strictly spiritual, and that he (and perhaps she with him) will return as the Christ, whom we speculate will be the head of the Almighty Supreme Oversoul of all humankind, physically stepping onto the world stage (incarnating again) - Jesus glorified.
Samuel Stuart Maynes
www.trinityabsolute.com