In all honesty, Brotherholf, I have not seen one word of chastisement or criticism of you in any of the responses to your question in this thread. BBasil was not directing anything at you personally, and none of my comments were directed at you, just answering your question.
I truly hope and pray that you will somehow be able to find some peace about the changes in the Church. You don’t have to like them, but I hope that you can someday come to terms with it, because we can’t ever go back to 40 years ago, it is not possible to turn the clock back, and we cannot undo the past. There is a lot of bitterness and resentment and sadness coming through in your posts, (and I’ve read many of your posts) and that can’t be easy to live with, and that is not spiritually healthy. I will pray for you that you find some peace. I mean that sincerely, and not as criticism. I can see how you have been suffering, and hope that the Lord can ease some of that.