It’s not at all unusual for people to be unable to grasp the concept of endlessness, whether it is eternity, or even mathematical infinity. That’s not surprising: We live in time and space, and all our referents are based on our orientation in time and space, whether it is physical, emotional, or intellectual.
Here is something I found very shocking when I was doing the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius of Loyola: To God, everything that has ever happened, or ever will happen, is present, meaning NOW. Creation of the world as we know it, all of the events of the Old Testament, the Sacrifice of Calvary, the growth of the Church, even the invention of the automobile and the internet. NOW. Recall that His Name is I AM. Not I Used to Be, or I Will Be, but I AM.
What human being, limited in time and space, could even begin to comprehend that?
And in Heaven, we get to see Him, as He IS. Mind boggling.
I don’t expect to be bored in the least. And if absolute bliss is “boring,” sign me up now!
Privately, though, I’ll tell you this: I am a retired professional ballet dancer. I danced for a world class company, the New York City Ballet, for twenty-two years.
I have a recurrent dream about Heaven. I meet Jesus. And to the strains of Tannhauser’s Overture, Jesus and I dance a demanding and athletic pas de deux across the skies. He is a wonderful dance partner. Despite the demanding choreography, I dance the best I have ever danced. I feel totally secure, totally cherished by my Partner. I dance the best I could ever imagine, and then some, totally for Him. There is no demanding practice. I somehow instinctively know this dance, as if I have always known it. And I just respond to His loving support. He brings out the best in me, the best that I didn’t even know was there.
I’ve even awakened, mid dream, and written down some of the choreography. I’ve never been able to satisfactorily execute it in real time, subject to the laws of gravity, even with a strong, well-trained, live partner.
I thought it was a little odd a couple of years ago, and while I was under spiritual direction, mentioned it to my spiritual director. He explained it to me this way: That all of our dreams aligned with the Will of God will be fulfilled. We will have no cause for struggle, nor for envy of the delights of others. In fact, other people’s happiness will only add to ours. Heaven will be absolute bliss.
Wow. Talk about dancing with the stars!
I imagine that all people who make it to Heaven, either immediately or eventually, will be so fulfilled with absolute delight in the Presence of God that no, it won’t be boring. Not at all. We will be totally absorbed in His presence. It will be simply and so totally fulfilling.
And privately, once again, I hope I do get to dance with Jesus across the skies.