Very sorry to hear that you suffer from depression/anxiety. I grappled with it throughout most of my childhood. Through the Grace of God, I’ve reached a point where I can deal with it without medication. I will pray that through the prayers of St. Dymphna you will be delivered from your trial if it’s God’s will.
I chose Pius as my confirmation name. I had in mind Saints/Popes Pius V and Pius X and I couldn’t decide between the two… St. Pius V was a humble priest around the time of Luther, yet he remained faithful to Holy Mother Church and ended up becoming one of the greatest reformers in Church history. Coming from a strict Lutheran body (the LCMS) I felt it was quite appropriate to seek the intercession of St. Pius V as I work with fellow Catholics to end the abuses present in many Masses across the country. I have sworn my allegiance to the Church, and I seek his intercession at times when I feel tempted to cavort with folks from the SSPX or SSPV.
St. Pius X was the other St. Pius that came to mind. The motto of his Pontificate was ‘to restore all things in Christ.’ He was an amazing guy. Codified canon law, lowered the age that children of the Latin church can receive communion, and he sought to end the feelings of hopeless unworthiness that many people had when approaching the Sacrament that sometimes scared people into receiving once or twice a year. He was the first pope to really encourage daily reception of the Eucharist.
Pius X had a great love of Sacred Music and pushed for the restoration of gregorian chant and an end to the corruption that had taken place (integration of profane music into worship, as is the case again today) in the world’s parishes, particularly American parishes… And lastly, Pius X foresaw the dangers of Modernism and the damage it would do (and in many cases, has done) to the Church and the Church’s credibility. It would do everyone a great deal of good to read the encyclicals of this great saint
vatican.va/holy_father/pius_x/encyclicals/
as well as his Oath against Modernism
ewtn.com/library/PAPALDOC/P10MOATH.HTM To the best of my knowledge, priests and bishops are no longer required to swear this oath upon their ordination/elevation. Imagine what things would be like if they did… Perhaps the greatest thing about Pius X is that he was not all talk (well if he were, he wouldn’t be a Saint, I suppose). He carried out his pontificate living as a humble priest, wearing his monastic clothing beneath his grand papal vesture, and he regularly taught Sunday school to children as well as catechism classes. The Catechism of St. Pius X should be required reading in any home with Catholic children…
Sts. Pius V and Pius X, pray for us!!!