I was really suffering with backsliding every day, almost every hour. I simply couldn’t raise myself up to holiness no matter what I tried. I spent 40 years in the desert this way. Then something happened. I received a mailing from one of the religious orders I give to, and it had a card with a novena on it. A very simple paragraph to the sacred heart, very short and simple. So I gave it a try, the first novena I completed successfully. And, what do you know - it worked! I was cured. It completely changed my head around, and the desire to sin left me. I still feel the urge to sin from time to time, but it is under control and swamped by a day begun with prayer, fortified with prayer throughout the day, and ended with prayer at bed time. A kind of a miracle, really.