I chose EF Diocesan Mass, but I’ve certainly been bouncing back and forth with the OF Diocesan Mass as well.
For me, I feel so confused regarding which Mass I should attend. I want to be loyal to the Church, but every time I go to the OF Mass, I find something that angers me. I don’t go looking for these things either; each time I go to the OF Mass, I tell myself that I’m going to be prayerful and pray extra hard should I see something I don’t agree with.
This has been especially difficult, however, because I recently made a goal to attend Mass at every parish in the diocese (check out the website in my sig). For the past month and a half, I’ve attended Mass at a different parish each Sunday and Holy Day of Obligation. I thought this journey would help me appreciate the OF Mass more, but it has had the reverse effect and now I’m thinking about abandoning it.
I’ve seen some terrible things during this short journey so far. At one recent parish, the celebrant treated the Consecration as if it were a magic show. He was smiling and winking at the people in the front. He got so caught up in the act that he messed up the Consecration of the Wine and had to start over. When he was cleaning the items after Holy Communion was distributed, he again started his magic show, treating the items as if he were going to pull a rabbit out of them, and was again seen smiling at the people in the front row.
Unfortunately, I think the only way I can stay faithful to the Church but avoid the OF Mass is to attend Diocesan TLM’s. My home parish used to offer a very reverent OF Mass, but it has since lost some of that reverence, in my opinion.
p.s. If you visit my website and wonder why I did not include these abuses in my blog posts, it’s because I want to remain neutral and I don’t believe blasting a particular parish would do anyone a bit of good. I want to give everyone the benefit of the doubt and assume they are just having a bad day.