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There are two predominant responses to any comment about lack of programs/activities etc in the Catholic Church, especially when those comments are made by a convert. And they're both complete artifacts of the culture:
- You’re a convert, therefore you’re not quite over being a Protestant, therefore you’re evil, hiss, hiss, OR
Wow. I have never heard a Catholic say such a thing. How AWFUL is that?
- Guess what? God is calling you to fix it and you are now on the hook. But when you try to fix it, it reverts to choice #1, because no one really wants anything fixed.
You seem to be discouraged, and it does not sound like you have gotten much supports for your efforts. I agree, it is cultural.
However, that still does not get you “off the hook” so to speak, since it is God’s hook you are on, not the Catholic cultural artifact hook. We all have to ask, seek, and knock until our individual vocation comes into clarity. If you have tried doorknobs and they don’t turn, then you have to move on.
No, if this is going to get fixed, it’s going to have to be somebody else who does it. Not me. God isn’t calling me. This is just a quirk of Catholic culture.
God has called each and every one of us. We all have a role to play to build up the Body of Christ. You are right, you are not able to “fix” the apathy of other Catholics, but you have a responsibilty to keep your lamp burning. As St. Christopher says, it is better to light a single candle than to curse the darkness.
1 Cor 12:14-26
14 For the body does not consist of one member but of many. 15 If the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would be the hearing? If the whole body were an ear, where would be the sense of smell? 18 But as it is, God arranged the organs in the body, each one of them, as he chose. 19 If all were a single organ, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many parts, yet one body. 21 The eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you,” nor again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” 22 On the contrary, the parts of the body which seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23 and those parts of the body which we think less honorable we invest with the greater honor, and our unpresentable parts are treated with greater modesty, 24 which our more presentable parts do not require. But God has so composed the body, giving the greater honor to the inferior part, 25 that there may be no discord in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another. 26** If one member suffers, all suffer together; if one member is honored, all rejoice together.**
Because we are members one of another, our choices affect each other. The apathy about Scripture causes you disgust. Your refusal to answer the call of God will affect other members of His body as well.
1 Cor 7:7
But each has his own special gift from God, one of one kind and one of another.
We must each discover and use our gifts, for we will be judged upon whether we did this, or not.
When we are acting in accordance with our gifts and calling, we will have rightousness, peace and joy. Disgust is not one of the fruits of the Spirit, which means that it has another purpose. For those who love the Lord, all things work together for the good, so this disgust and discouragement you feel is intended for your good, and therefore, to the good of His Body.
