I guess that’s hard to say since they are Atheist. I’d like to think that as long as they’re doing well in school and don’t turn to a life of crime and drugs then I’m proud of them still. The important thing is that they follow their own path and that that path leads them to happiness. If I’ve done my job right ‘as I believe I have’ as their father then they’ll be OK.
This hit home so hard it felt like a blow to the stomache. I apologize but feel I must write this.
I used to feel this way too. My children were not atheists (thank my wife) but I was deeply synical and agnostic (probably the best term).
One day this all changed when I pondered the evidence and found it credible to a certain level. Then I realized what I may have done. He left thier souls, in my hands and I led them astray. I was devistated beyond mention. I realized I attempted to impose my beliefs on them. I did this with my own twisted logic and pride. I was above all that religious non-sense.
I may have been corrrect. There may be no God. BUT, I thought, what if there was something to all this and I led them astray because I know my ideas were better then 2000 years of Christianity that has essentially engulfed the world (as prophesised) after beginning with a simple disobedient Man’s death on a cross. It was all too profound to ignore. It was all too beautiful to ignore. I came to believe it was all too True to ignore. And I led them astray. I pray to God every day to guid me in the remedy of my error.
I tried my best to turn things around but they were in thier late teens at the time. Today they are both Catholic. I wish I could say they were more devout then they are but they do have a strong belief in God and follow thier faith. I now ask God to help do what I can and to work with me.
My marriage was in shambles for the same reason; my lack of caring about the sanctity and disresolve of Holy Matrimony. My “happiness” was deserving of much more…of course. Since then, my wife and I got married again, this tiime in the Catholic church and our life has changed immeasurably for the better. Funny thing, NOW I am happy (however it has a much different meaning to me now), then I was in pursuit of happiniess…and miserable. “Lose your life and you will find it”.
I beg you to reconsider if your children are young. I profoundly apologize for any intrusion of privacy. I do not want anyone to suffer the pain I have suffered over this.
Much more importantly, souls may be in the balance.