The foundation of my faith crumbled because it didn’t make sense to me anymore, and in fact, some parts looked immoral to me, and a perfect God is incompatible with immorality and cruelty.
I don’t know how one can consider faith a choice if it fundamentally doesn’t make sense to them. My brain automatically tells me if something makes sense or not. I can’t choose to believe that 1+1=3 nor can I choose to believe in Zeus, or that Jesus is God. Even if one desires/hopes for it, they can not somehow force themselves to obtain faith, even if they do all the ‘correct faith producing actions’.
No. I agree with you. You can not force yourself to feel God’s presence. Did you know it even says that in the Bible? Jesus (in the bible) says John 15:16 (New American Standard Bible)
"You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you.”
And… Hebrews 5:4
“And no one takes the honor to himself, but receives it when he is called by God, even as Aaron was”
etc… (there’s lots more)…
You hit the nail on the head. That’s why I don’t act too forcefully with my atheist friends. How can I expect them to accept that which they just don’t feel in their hearts?
(Here’s the other shoe dropping.)
BUT.
All faith requires is acceptance that we are not infinite beings and so there is no possible way we can comprehend ALL things God. Yet there ARE things that are undeniable in our lives: seeds that God has planted for us that all we need do is water a bit. Little miracles and big ones; the absolutely unexplainable. Search your heart. Do you have these? Then maybe God has called you. He is the still small voice talking to you now in the darkness of your heart. Hear Him. Be still and know Him.
No?
Well there’s one other really great thing God gave us. Kind of a back door for the “faithless” to get to know Him: Prayer. If you find yourself incapable of it, then ask your friends to do it for you. Hey, if in fact it IS truly meaningless, then you’ve lost nothing. Right? But, check it out: Prayer, is like going to the gym; the more you do it (even if vicariously through others) and the more regularly (gotta be consistent) you do it, the more results you’ll see.
Try it. What harm could it do?
I guess there’s some beautiful people that have just faith; but really, I think most of us KNOW in our hearts, minds and souls (down to the fiber of our very being) that, somehow (we don’t fully “get” it but someway Jesus is the great “I AM” and he died so that we would have a way to be with God despite our sinful natures. We don’t have the full picture of how this all works but we can’t DENY certain things that have God’s signature all over them. And what even cooler is the more you study the Bible and the Catholic Church with an open heart and open mind (pray for this gift from the Holy Spirit) the more we can accept that which we can never comprehend; the more clear and beautiful our world and our selves become.
And I’ll say a little prayer for you now: may God Bless you; be not sick at heart; know you are loved.
Oh, and BTW: Zeus is not, nor did his followers ever claim him to be the “Creator of the Universe”. BIG difference.