Why does it seem like evil is stronger than good?

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Spot on about every single thing. I did dabble in the occult, i tend to be hot or cold with people, same with God, I’ve always been angry with God, but “angry” does not begin to tell what it felt like when i realized God wasn’t going to come thru the way I’d expected and dreamed he would. Year was 1997. But let me make it clear, there is some kind of curse on my stupid life, i’ve known life wasn’t for me for a long time. No potential, a blocked future, bleak future, anxiety, always battling despair, “more loneliness than any man can bear”, especially in my teens. Not cut out for life. Pleas for help ignored by our loving God. Jesus said it best, sometimes it’s best not to be born or not be created. My dad was/is a religious nut, I’ve been around priests. Winning is what I need, for things to look up, for this curse to be lifted, but no matter how well things could go, I’ll always remember two things 1-the past 2-that God is the God of Job. Money is the only thing that can free me to the extent where i want to be free. Without money, no matter how much God loves you and calls you blessed on Sunday, when Monday comes around, back to boring job and the absence of a temporal future. The glorious suck-it-up-now-live-it-up-in-heaven. I’m basically just telling God in no uncertain terms jus what i think of his gift of life, it’s certainly not a “gift” the way sane people view what a gift is. A poisoned gift. But it’s maddening to think i did not have to exist*, it’s not I would have missed out on anything, of course not having existed it wouldn’t have mattered anyway. I think God started the ball rolling with my creation, and Satan or other demon(s) took over where God had left off. I feel good about the thought of not existing, if God had a heart he’d have 2nd thoughts about my creation, but if he can live with the thought of damned souls trapped in hell for eternity, I’m sure he can handle my misery and despair. Bu there is no way for me, if i take up God, I will commit a social suicide and lose the bit of social acceptance I have managed to secure for myself at my work. Robertanthony is not going to revisit the dark places of the past and has his herat trampled underfoot again. But as Tony implies, I had everything going for me at birth, God has been very gracious and liberal with me, if i’m feeling the way I feel, it’s nobody’s fault but mine. The best solution is to not exist, but here I am, so I am screwed. But sin does make life livable, so thank God for sin.

*And people die everyday who want nothing but to live. God is glorious. A God of the absurd. He likes to frustrate some people, give them veggies when they’re meat lovers, and meat when they’re vegans. Perfect and loving? No way.
What you want is so paltry compared to what God wants to give you. I pray that you will seek what you need to get out of the dark place you build for yourself.
 
You’re obviously much more skilled thanI am at editing posts, so this format is easier for me.
1- Objectively, my parents are two losers who have essentilly failed their marriage, failed at being parents, failed at instilling in us a love of God (1/2 of their offspring are hardcore atheists), failed at raising us to be mentally balanced, happy productive members of society, failed to provide for us a nurturing, safe, stimulating and loving environment. Everytime I see them/hear them, which is infrequently, i am reminded that they are the unfortunate reasons i am here. If you define love by willing someone 's salvation, then i love them. I go thru the motion: flowers for mother’s day, staying polite, kiss when I see her, essentially faking my way through it. But i never lose sight of the fact that i had to endure being me for 40 odd years for a single act of procreation. Dad is half crazy nowadays, small talk always, I listen to him saying how politicianss are corrupt, how the 9/11 bombing was an inside job, and other nonsense. I’m being a good little boy just like God demands of me.

2- Being me has brought essentially only bad things. I’m a stupid loser with adhd, brain incapable of learning, forget about being good at a job and being competent, so yes I hate myself. I am ashamed of who I am and wish I wasn’t around.

3- Nothing is quite right about anything my life. Nothing brings me unadulterated pride and satisfaction. Money would have made things right. But from God’s standpoint, giving me money would lift most of the weight on my life, so that would kind of defeat his initial purpose.

4-Non

5-Au contraire. The world is an awesome place. Awesome. Only caveat: awesome if/when you are properly equipped. An adhd introvert wth a slow, inefficient brain does not qualify for “properly equipped”. I suck at life. Suck at pretty much evevrything thta counts.

6-I honestly think i did the best i could given the lovely family environment i had, the way i was brought up and the cheap, subpar material which God created me with. Give me Jesus’ grey matter, and I’m not where I am right now. promise.

7-I’m anxious by nature, temperament, for some reaosn I’m not popular, never been an all out outcast, never been popular either. Deep seated inferiority, inadequacy and shame have pretty much clipped my wings. Life was spent fearing others and the future. I knew life was gonna crush me given my lack of potential, i had not much going for me. I knew everyone was going to make it somehow, build great lives for themselves, build a little fortune, have fulfilling careers, i knew i was gonna be the dumb loser who is left behind with a crummy job. God is so good. I feel so cherished by God.

8- i believe in the existence of God i don’t think God is loving or perfect, which places me on equal footing with the devil! I’m cheaply made, I tend to obsess over things, I could not stop thinking about God if I wanted to. Unconsciously, i hope God will come thru powerfully one day and change my life in a good way, not because he is likely to do it, but simply because I always had/have to cling to different ideas and hopes to keep me from falling into despair. I’m superstitious in that way, i suppose.

9-I curse God who created me the way you would give vinegar to someone who is parched. I don’t care how you slice it, you don’t do it out of sheer goodness for the sake of the other. I’m like a farmer needing additional manpower and procreating for that reason. It’s not about the baby. Same with me, if God allows a miserable human being to be created, he certainly doesn’t do it for the sake or the good of the person.I can no longer fake loving God and keeping the rage in check, God was cruel enough to let me be born an inferior man destined for misery down here, but he also failed to come thru when it would have been very easy, child play easy for him to come thru. But God revels in things being hard and tragic.

10-Which prophet (Jeremiah?) felt like the word of God was like a fire, he felt compelled to speak it even though he knew he was going to get negative feedback from people. As someoen with adhd, wordiness is a problem. Perhaps my magical thinking makes me think someone here will offer an explanation, i will receive an epiphany etc. Perhaps i want to challenge people’s ideas about God. I’d rather not discuss with my mom what i feel about her and her giving me life. A forum is best for me because writing stuff gives me time to think, i don’t have to come up with something on the spot like when you see people face to face. An atheist forum? I’M not an atheist. Forum for God haters? I hate God, but i’m not one-dimensional, there are things about theology, morality etc. etc. that i like to discuss and see discussed. Plus there are awesome people here. But not feeling would be awesome. LIfe can freaking crush you. What a female dog(from the saying "life’s a *****)).
There is at least one thing that gives you satisfaction: expressing yourself. 🙂

There have been many severely afflicted people - like Helen Keller - who overcame their handicaps and inspired others rather than cursing their fate. You underestimate the power of positive thinking. Why not start counting your blessings for a change? 😉
 
There is at least one thing that gives you satisfaction: expressing yourself. 🙂

There have been many severely afflicted people - like Helen Keller - who overcame their handicaps and inspired others rather than cursing their fate. You underestimate the power of positive thinking. Why not start counting your blessings for a change? 😉
You’re right.

No matter what or how I try, there is this seemingly bottomless reservoir of negativity, counting my blessings is like trying to build a small levee, the tsunami will not be stopped by it. I would have needed a life that works, I’m convinced that I’m too defective to achieve that, and moreover I’m paralysed by fear and by the failures of the past, I’m keenly aware that I don’t measure up. Sometimes I think it would have been best if human life was capped at 50-55 years. A life not working would not weigh people down so much. God may have in mind to keep me alive until I’m 103. :eek: I’m sure Paul McCartney or Donald Trump would like to live to be 1000 years if science allowed it, it all depends on how you experience life. To me, life is like a cancer. But with the right kind of brain, a few talents, a few breaks from God, a little more social skills, I’d be a very different fellow. Hence why I question the point of me being around to experience life as a cancer. It would take so little from God, a little goodwill, use his omnipotence for my good, turn things around, but it will never happen. That’s not God’s modus operandi. Oh well…
 
*There is at least one thing that gives you satisfaction: expressing yourself. 🙂

There have been many severely afflicted people - like Helen Keller - who overcame their handicaps and inspired others rather than cursing their fate. You underestimate the power of positive thinking. Why not start counting your blessings for a change? ;)*
You’re right.

No matter what or how I try, there is this seemingly bottomless reservoir of negativity, counting my blessings is like trying to build a small levee, the tsunami will not be stopped by it. I would have needed a life that works, I’m convinced that I’m too defective to achieve that, and moreover I’m paralysed by fear and by the failures of the past, I’m keenly aware that I don’t measure up. Sometimes I think it would have been best if human life was capped at 50-55 years. A life not working would not weigh people down so much. God may have in mind to keep me alive until I’m 103. :eek: I’m sure Paul McCartney or Donald Trump would like to live to be 1000 years if science allowed it, it all depends on how you experience life. To me, life is like a cancer. But with the right kind of brain, a few talents, a few breaks from God, a little more social skills, I’d be a very different fellow. Hence why I question the point of me being around to experience life as a cancer. It would take so little from God, a little goodwill, use his omnipotence for my good, turn things around, but it will never happen. That’s not God’s modus operandi. Oh well… You’re right.
You’re brainwashing yourself, Robert! You’re full of confidence when you express yourself on this forum. You know exactly what you want to say and you communicate effectively. 🙂

You also admit that with** a few** talents and a few breaks you’d be a very different fellow. In other words you’re closer to success than you think. All of us are failures in some respect. Instead of being fatalistic and expecting God to turn things around you’re capable of doing it yourself. You must admit you have some control over yourself and your life but you lack confidence and self-respect.

Haven’t you ever done anything that has helped others in some way? If you have - as I’m sure you have - you can do it again, even without money, and it will take your mind off your own troubles. There’s always some one worse off than we are…
 
So okay our suffering unites us with him but does that mean more suffering is better? In my own life it feels sometimes like I am in the Spiritual Marine Corps with all the suffering I go through. I hear all the time God won’t give us what we can’t handle but anymore it feels like I can’t handle my suffering. I’ve been struggling with the feeling God doesn’t care. It got so bad one day I stood at my dad’s grave (he died when I was 15) and all I could think was “This is evidence of you not caring God” and I get so angry because I prayed so hard that my dad would live but of course that didn’t happen. What hurts too is when people say “he’s doing more for you in heaven than he ever could on earth” but what if he is in hell? My dad was Catholic but not exactly the most devout guy other than going to mass with my family.
The only time you can’t handle your suffering is if you decide to commit suicide. Until then, no matter how painful it is, you’re handling it whether you want to or not. It’s only if and when you decide to give up that your suffering has defeated you. It’s ok to be angry and confused about it. Don’t deny these things, don’t repress these feelings, becuase the only thing that will happen is that you will feel worse. It’s ok to feel the way you do, Job felt the same way. Let it all in, embrace your pain, your confusion, your anger. We’re not God, we cannot see His providence as it occurs; generally we can only see it after it’s worked itself out. At the end of the day, the only thing that you can do is continue living. It sucks, it’s not fair, the wicked seem to prosper and the good to suffer. I wish it wasn’t like this but it is. I wish I could tell you it will all be alright in the end, but it may not. No one here knows how long you will suffer, and if it breaks you, and if you feel like you’ve lost control, have a laugh about it. That’s really all we powerless little mortals can do.

Here’s a life quote to think about when it gets like this:
“Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive”
God Bless
 
Anymore I feel like evil just rules the world and that God either doesn’t care or isn’t powerful enough to stop it. I honestly don’t understand why God even allows evil to exist in the first place. Is there any reason for evil? Also if God is the supreme being why didn’t he just stop satan in the first place and annihilate him? I know it’s probably out of love for him, but it seems weak and lazy to me to allow evil to thrive. I want my God to be a warrior fighting battles for us but instead it seems like he’s just sitting back letting the devil win until the final trumpet blast which seems unfair to me. But does this mean God is lazy or is Satan stronger than God (on earth at least I know that when the world ends he will be defeated)
We’re the hands of God here, to the extent that we stand for righteousness and don’t melt in the face of fear. Satan had the same opportunity, but opted to oppose God, coveting His status. We can be his hands as well, participating in the rebellion. Its really all about the will, whether we’ll choose life or death, good or evil. Evil is only as big as we allow it to be.
 
Anymore I feel like evil just rules the world and that God either doesn’t care or isn’t powerful enough to stop it. I honestly don’t understand why God even allows evil to exist in the first place. Is there any reason for evil? Also if God is the supreme being why didn’t he just stop satan in the first place and annihilate him? I know it’s probably out of love for him, but it seems weak and lazy to me to allow evil to thrive. I want my God to be a warrior fighting battles for us but instead it seems like he’s just sitting back letting the devil win until the final trumpet blast which seems unfair to me. But does this mean God is lazy or is Satan stronger than God (on earth at least I know that when the world ends he will be defeated)
It occurred to me that maybe it’s from watching too much news. Also evil grabs our attention more than good, so we tend to count it more than good.

Think of all the good out there. The other day I wanted to learn how to make aloe vera juice, and sure enough there was a video on YouTube on how to do it. Bless that man who did the video.

The garbage man comes regularly, as does the mailman. Of course, they are getting paid, but they are doing good, too.

We take all these things for granted. If we really think about it, there is mostly good in the world.

It’s just that the bad, especially the most egregious evil, grabs our attention.

When a father brought his small child to the scene of the Paris attack, the boy was frightened by the evil persons who did the atrocity and was concerned about their guns and how they were in danger from them. The father told him there was nothing to fear, see all the flowers people are putting there, the flowers would protect them from the guns. And it occurred to me there are many many more of the flower-laying people than there are of terrorists. Most people are not criminals, even tho they may have their flaws.

But I also do become despondent now and then about the level of evil – spectacular and ordinary evil – in the world.
 
Anymore I feel like evil just rules the world and that God either doesn’t care or isn’t powerful enough to stop it. I honestly don’t understand why God even allows evil to exist in the first place. Is there any reason for evil? Also if God is the supreme being why didn’t he just stop satan in the first place and annihilate him? I know it’s probably out of love for him, but it seems weak and lazy to me to allow evil to thrive. I want my God to be a warrior fighting battles for us but instead it seems like he’s just sitting back letting the devil win until the final trumpet blast which seems unfair to me. But does this mean God is lazy or is Satan stronger than God (on earth at least I know that when the world ends he will be defeated)
It`s easy and small …
 
Anymore I feel like evil just rules the world and that God either doesn’t care or isn’t powerful enough to stop it. I honestly don’t understand why God even allows evil to exist in the first place.
There are probably many things about God you and I don’t understand.

But it seems reasonable to believe that evil must be allowed to exist in order to have a choice between good and evil. If we could only choose good, we would be little more than well planned robots with nothing to do but go through our programmed motions according to the Deity’s master plan.

But why should you think that evil rules the world? Does it rule you? Does it rule all your family members. Does it rule anywhere on a scale of absolute supremacy over good? Hitler’s rule lasted a mere twelve years. The forces of good were assembled against him and finally overcame him. Other tyrants of evil seem to have ruled briefly, some longer than others, but hardly any more than two or three generations before they were overthrown.

Matthew 13:30 ► The parable of the wheat and the tares. When questioned whether the weeds should not be destroyed so that the wheat might thrive, Jesus answered:

“Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn.”
 
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