I am a conver to Catholicism, but not by force. I converted by choice. And I do know the term shmad very well. This was a term that my parents used when I told them I was going to become a Catholic.
I am also very familiar with the forced conversions, which were not really conversions, because the individuals were put against the wall. This is history. I’m not sure how anyone who has studied world history is unaware of this. This was not common just with Jews, but with Asians, Native Americans and African slaves.
As to a lack of awareness of our history and how our ancestors died for their faith, I am going to disagree with. I grew up in a very religious family. We are sephardics from Spain and have been Reformed since our family came to the Americas. To me it was not a matter of not knowing our history, heritage and a lack of appreciation. On the contrary, I love my Jewish heritage. Even though my household is the only household in our family who is Catholic, we have a wondeful relationship with our family.
My family plays an important part in all of our Christian celebrations and we in all of the Jewish celebrations. When my mother was alive my children sat for hours as she told them of the horros that Jews suffered in Europe during WW II. Today, my children are now young adults and are very big supporters of any organization that provides services to the survivors. They are also very involved in the Jewish-Catholic dialogue at the university.
I became a Catholic because what I saw in the Capuchin-Franciscan friars who educated me and protected me from anti-semiticism aroused my curiosity about St. Francis. I started to read about him. I fell in love with his spirituality. That drew me into the study of teachings of Jesus Christ which St. Francis taught and lived in such a simple and convincing way. As I studied Jesus I became more and more aware that he is truly the Son of God.
I had to grapple with the singularity of God, which I had learned in my youth. I had to ask myself how could there be three gods, when we know there is only one God. That pointed me in the direction of philosophy. There I discovered something that I had never considered, the difference between nature and person.
When I fimished my BS in math, I went on to study theology and philosophy. I arrived at the conclusion that Jesus was not in conflict with Judaism, because there is only one God, as there is only one Divine nature. What Jesus was talking about was that there are three persons that form a community of love within one Divine nature. In this case, the Jewish faith is not violated. Because there is only one God, as it was revealed to Abraham. And this God lives in a communion of love within his divine nature.
This made sense to me. I could see how God could be love, as he is a singular communion on love, not three false gods.
I was also very attracted by how similar the martydom of the Christians and the Jews is. To give one’s life for one’s faith in the one true God is no small matter. This gave me another point to consider. We (Jews) had given brith to a community of believers who gave their lives for their faith. The same as our anscestors had done.
I realized that the separation between the Jews and Christians had more to do with a misunderstanding of the Trinity and the influence of the Gentiles on certain Christian externals. I also understood that the antagonism between Jews and Christians was not so much about faith, as it was about power.
Unfortunately, human beings tend to drag anything they can into the mix when they are struggling for power and control. This is a sad state of affairs when that happens.
Hopefully, as Benedict XVI and Rabbi Klenicki who teaches Catholic theology at the Angelicum seminary in Rome have said, the more we dialogue the more we will understand each other.
JR