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Vinessa,(sorry for misspelling your name
) I too went through an unexpected pregnancy at 19. I was from an abusive home with a mentally unstable mother. The man was a one night stand who basically abandoned me. Education seemed my only hope of escaping the cycle of poverty that existed in my family. A pregnancy would hinder my education.
My outlook was admittedly selfish because I was focusing in on my own needs. I felt without hope. Luckily I did not get an abortion.
If I had an abortion the guilt might have caused me to forever justify my action. It would be much easier to try and get others to see the hopelessness I felt at that moment then to analyse why I was wrong.
Perhaps before God my culpability would have been lessened because of my lack of spiritual maturity(this was due to my abusive childhood) but I would still be guilty of murder. That is what abortion is after all.
Think of this analogy. A person has an elderly, invalid who is dependent on them. THis person is stuck in poverty because they provide care for this person. They see no way out, so they murder the invalid. Now imagine further that there are other family members who want to care for their sickly relative but the caretaker never reached out to them. This scenario is no different then abortion.
Some of the most strigent anti abortionist that I know have had abortions and realize their mistakes. But inorder to get to the point of healling, they have to admit that they did something wrong.
I still live with the guilt that I almost murdered my oldest son. Yes, I know that God forgives me, but it doesn’t change the fact that at one point I considered murdering my own child. I have to live with that. Yet, at the same time, as bad as my life was, I can honestly say that I would have had no justification for what I had been about to do.
My outlook was admittedly selfish because I was focusing in on my own needs. I felt without hope. Luckily I did not get an abortion.
If I had an abortion the guilt might have caused me to forever justify my action. It would be much easier to try and get others to see the hopelessness I felt at that moment then to analyse why I was wrong.
Perhaps before God my culpability would have been lessened because of my lack of spiritual maturity(this was due to my abusive childhood) but I would still be guilty of murder. That is what abortion is after all.
Think of this analogy. A person has an elderly, invalid who is dependent on them. THis person is stuck in poverty because they provide care for this person. They see no way out, so they murder the invalid. Now imagine further that there are other family members who want to care for their sickly relative but the caretaker never reached out to them. This scenario is no different then abortion.
Some of the most strigent anti abortionist that I know have had abortions and realize their mistakes. But inorder to get to the point of healling, they have to admit that they did something wrong.
I still live with the guilt that I almost murdered my oldest son. Yes, I know that God forgives me, but it doesn’t change the fact that at one point I considered murdering my own child. I have to live with that. Yet, at the same time, as bad as my life was, I can honestly say that I would have had no justification for what I had been about to do.