I am an atheist. I was raised a Catholic, but recently stopped believing in God because of intellectual objections (which are a topic for another discussion, not this one). I still am a moral person, and my behavior hasn’t changed since I stopped believing. Most of my friends still think that I am Catholic, because the only change in my behavior that could possibly tip them off is that I no longer go to mass. So my question is, if I am wrong about Catholicism, do you believe that it is possible for a former-Catholic atheist who lives a moral life to get into heaven?
Oh, and one last thing: please don’t try to psychoanalyze me. I am not asking this because I’m afraid of hell (I don’t even believe it exists) and I do not secretly believe in God and am not secretly angry at him. Let’s stick to the relevant topic please!
Well, Hell does exist. I had the peculiar and I suppose rather rare experience of **my own father **turning up in my room the night he died. He started with an apology for a lifetime of deliberate cruelty, we argued and conversed, and at the end he gave this absolutely terrifying scream and disappeared. I can assure you that something terrified him to the core.
However the interesting part is that I was an atheist at the time, and didn’t want to believe what I’d seen. So I did my best to ignore it. But I became a Christian about four years later anyway for other reasons. I have had other spiritual experiences since (quite a lot of them in fact), but that one happened while I was still an atheist.
But that hasn’t been your experience. Taking you at your word, you are a former Catholic whom I assume never really believed in God, and for intellectual reasons you claim you cannot believe in God.
I can’t judge you as Christ told us not to, and in addition I haven’t stood in your shoes. However as I said, Hell exists, and I assume Heaven does also, whatever your intellectual objections might be.
So on the day you front up to judgement, which IS going to happen, you will have your life played back in front of you, and you’ll see yourself as you really are, in the light of God’s absolute perfect holiness. And that’s the nub. How perfect are you?
I’m afraid you’ll have to answer that, because that’s the basis on which you will or won’t get into heaven. And I don’t know you, so you’l have to judge yourself.
Which is what you’ll do anyway - “By your (own) words you will be acquitted, and by your (own) words you will be condemned”. If my experience of my father’s apparition was anything to go by, we judge ourselves in the divine light. My own father made comments like “I can’t believe how cruel and stupid I’ve been”; “I’ve been an absolute mongrel to you”; “What was I trying to prove?”; “There’s no hope for me. All I was expected to do was to look after my own family and I didn’t even do that!” etc.
Yet I can assure you that 5 minutes before he died, he wouldn not have admitted to those failings. So he was judging himself in his (own) words, and therefore fulfilling Christ’s statement “by your (own) words you will be condemned”.
Therefore it’s a bit pointless asking us whether you’ll go to hell, since your acquittal or condemnation will be in your own words, not ours.