Oh !!! in that case I take eveything back that I said… I was just joking… I made it all up !!
okay so you are projecting now. If people speculate about birds then I guess you take it to mean they want to be birds too? Umm, logic anyone?Oh !!! in that case I take eveything back that I said… I was just joking… I made it all up !!
No I didn’t, in any case, depression is a HUGE, HUGE problem for many folks. IF you are even considering suicide or feel hopeless
, get help fast !
Mu dear friend, hang in there. I don’t beleive God can allow so much suffering without finally saying “enough.” It is amazing too that even in tough times for many, their own families do not seek to even TRY to understand, but rather at times pour pain over grief. Many have told me that in their **darkest **and hardest times in life weather it was economic or otherwise, the **only **ones who even OFFERED to help, were NOT family, but some close friends, and God.
Exactly. I’ve always been told that suicide is unforgiveable and is a ticket straight to hell, except in situations where you repent at the last minute and wish you could undo it but it’s too late.
Interesting observation.
Hi Misty,It’s coming up on 3 years since my only serious attempt at suicide. I wasn’t supposed to have lived, but somehow I made it. Of course, I wasn’t of the Catholic faith at the time, and had I been maybe things would have been different. But, I am bipolar, and should be on medication for the rest of my life. At the time, my ex-husband had talked me into getting off of it, because he didn’t believe in it. And then subsequent issues made me leave him. I won’t go into the whole story here, but I was in another state, and had gone to the hospital there several times, telling them that I felt suicidal and I knew the only way to stop myself was to go there and get help. They repeatedly turned me away, saying that if I was seeking help, I couldn’t be seriously suicidal. Well, I was. And it was not something I could control. I needed medication, but had no insurance, because my ex took me off of his the day I left. Without medication, I did not have the capacity to fight this off. I tried. Let me tell you, I tried. But, one day, the worst thing I could have imagined happened, and that was it. I drove to a secluded spot and took about 120 pills of varying types.
Somehow, about the time I should have lost consciousness for the last time, I realized that my thinking was wrong. My kids needed me, to lose their mother this way would scar them, and a “bad mother” (as I thought of myself at the time) was better than no mother.
Side note: I was not a bad mother, in fact I had been a very good mother, and still am. But, my thinking was distorted because I had my ex telling me I was.
So, the my next memory, a vague one, was stumbling into a fire station that I now know was about 10 miles away (I drove in that state!)
I don’t believe that, had I died in that condition, even if I hadn’t changed my mind, that it was with my own full consent. I do believe that had I known God in the way that I do now, that I would have known where to go for help. Perhaps I would never have stopped taking medication. But those are all what-if’s, and have no real bearing.
To anyone wondering about a loved one who may have committed suicide - put your faith in God, who knows their heart. For them to be with God in heaven right now is not an impossible idea.
To anyone contemplating suicide right now - it does get better. NO MATTER WHAT is happening, it will get better. I promise. You won’t always hurt like this, and there’s only one thing you need to do. Trust in God. If you truly can do that, the rest will follow. If you cannot, then reach out to someone who cares, be it family, friends, or even a stranger on forums somewhere. God loves you and wants to help.
Thank God you “failed” in your attempt!
Hard to say. I am “severe bipolar” too, and last year I had an incredible suicidal wish that lasted a few months, and I’m a cradle Catholic. Things might have been different depending on the nature of your “societal confusion” or whatever brought it on.
That is extremely irresponsible. When I was being trained for crisis intervention, we were taught this is one of the more common, and more deadly, myths. I think it is also one of the stupidest myths, that a person who says they want to kill themselves must be really OK as long as they’re talking about it and not doing it. Gosh, if you had gone in and said you felt sick to your stomach, I bet they’d have gotten you a container, rather than saying, “well as long as you are talking about it we don’t think you are serious.” Idiots. IMO they are partly responsible for your actual attempt by being inept.
Of course. I wonder if you had insurance, if they would have taken you seriously.
??? "projecting " not sure what you mean by this ???
Some ‘bedside’ manner, hun? I really don’t think he very compassionate. His job is to pump you up with meds and make money for the drug companies…
That’s sort of a contradiction someone who loves God, does His will not their own. To kill yourself with full awareness that this is NOT what He wishes is a rejection of God. Mortal sin is a complete rejection of God and His commandments. It’s like saying I can not and will not live as You ask me to.
I will not do that, but unless i have a medical plan, i can not recieve counceling…but i have found good councel here, this i am so very glad of. I believe that there is good and bad in everything. And as long as i can keep my chin above water with faith, i will begin to heal…and hope!
