Jesus, I am HONORED that you would pay me such a kind compliment, brother. I’m not sure I’m worthy of it but I’ll strive to be…
I’m definitely where you are, on a religious journey, a quest to find the Truth ecclesiastically. I feel a great deal of pressure to get things right because my decisions not only impact my wife and I but also our three children. I have a 5, 4, and 3 year old. Two boys and a girl. It’s a long, tiring process trying to seek the Truth.
I’m glad you’re enjoying the ROCOR liturgy. I haven’t experienced nearly as much of Orthodoxy as you have. I have only been to ONE Divine Liturgy, at the Serbian Orthodox about an hour’s drive from here. In fact, I went with another poster here at CAF! He has been a good friend to me, patient also. I tend to really mentally debate theological ideas around, read both sides, and try to be intellectually honest. That can tick off both sides sometimes if I’m not careful!

I tend to do that in politics also. Being very independent, both my Republican and Democratic friends can get fed up with me fast!
I think there’s a lot of psychological dimensions to religion that I never expected, an emotional, sentimental side. For example, when I went to the Orthodox DL, I missed seeing those stations of the cross, the holy water font, the regular crucifix, the kneelers, etc. But when I was at Mass yesterday, I missed the incense already, the piety, the mystique of the DL…
I also hate to admit it, but there is a personality aspect as well. The Catholic clergy in my entire area are really bland, pastoral care is abysmal, confession really lacks that spiritual father aspect I’ve heard that Orthodoxy nurtures in the individual, and I think the overall way the Church handles things around here isn’t right. For example, in the Catholic Church around here, they require two years of classes for the kids and the parents in catechism for first communion. They also require you to not miss ANY Masses. They actually have a priest sign off this paper to prove you were at Mass. Either that or they scan the barcode on your donation envelopes to see if you were there. If you go out of town to Mass elsewhere, you’re required to bring a bulletin from them proving you were there. I find this too bizarre and big brother. Then, here’s the kicker, to get Confirmed in the CC here, you have to go THREE YEARS in high school to catechism/theology classes regularly, attend like 3 or 4 retreats up in the foothills, and you have to do something like 45 hours of community service.
The Orthodox don’t look at the Sacraments as something you have to earn. They are Christ’s gifts to us. When you’re ready, you obtain them. They give the Sacrament to children ASAP. I agree with that. And I LOVE the idea of chrismation over the years and years of having to “earn” the Eucharist and Confirmation. It’s too forced, artificial, weird, and unfair. It also turns off teens. As a teenager, I skipped the whole thing because it turned me off. As a 19 year old, I went to RCIA when the Holy Spirit convicted me to start seeking the Lord. Maybe I would’ve done it as a teen if they hadn’t had the hoops and ladders? The Sacraments should be available, not withheld so much after a gauntlet of proving oneself…
I envy you in your love for standing. In the 1.5 hour liturgy, I sat down for about 20 minutes of it. I have a serious foot condition, planter faciaitis, borderline candidate for surgery so I can’t stand for too long but I hate people around me thinking I’m a deadbeat!

Gurney,
I wondered when you would explore Orthodoxy. Given your stated concerns about purgatory, Papal infallibility, and indulgences (I hope I am getting that right), I thought Orthodoxy would be a natural choice for you. I have similar concerns.
I have been attending an Orthodox Church (ROCOR) for the past 6 months. I first came for the theology, having been attracted to their focus on and respect for the Early Church Fathers. What surprised me was how much I have grown to love the Eastern liturgy, especially Russian singing; anything less than 2 hours standing listening to those sublime chants now seems unfulfilling.
I love the priest and his wife as well. His being married seems, in his case, an advantage in being able to understand my own situation.
Many blessings to you. Your posts have often helped me to clarify my own thinking.