I really needed to watch those videos. Thank you (name removed by moderator). My head has been spinning and reeling and my faith all over the place with speculation, the horrific abominations of this world, and the agenda of the evil elites. I needed to be grounded with the reminder that all is only permissive because of God, that he is still in control, and that fear is not of Him. And that living in and not of this world is not for the feint of heart; we need to learn to love our sufferings, embrace our cross instead of ignore and shun it, and be the saints we’re called to be in this time. We were all born in this period for a reason, and we need to remember to raise each other up, even if only virtually. But I’ve been denying my children of a proper Catchetiasis because of grief, fear, and ignorance. If I want to see my little girl one day again, I have to put on my big girl panties and embrace the sorrow surrounding her death to transform myself for a fit and proper instrument of Christ. I’ve always struggled with talking to her in Heaven because, as much as she’s my little girl, up there, she’s not. She’s a saint and I don’t know if she can see the things about me God can, if permitted, but I always imagine she sees how dark my heart is, how lost I am in the Faith, and how badly I’m failing her siblings. Just like I failed her…to protect her. I know that is the enemy at work too, but these videos helped check some of my despair that the last leg of 2017 is bringing out of me. I’m not saying I’m ready for 2018, but time doesn’t stop, ready or not, so I guess it’s time to focus more on having my family ready instead of despairing on the past and even the present. Thank you again for these videos.