You know, I do understand your POV. Eternal and universal salvation sounds loving. It takes a lot of worry away; no need to worry about slip ups, sins, etc. God understands and of COURSE when we die, we would never turn away from Him and even if we did, He would somehow ‘make us’ OK with Him. All we need to do is be ‘good enough’ and trust to somebody to accept us "as we are’ because, well, He made us, it’s HIS responsibility if He is ‘really loving’ to love us enough to ‘get us to heaven’.
But I see why Jesus isn’t ‘your God’, because Jesus, despite all His good sayings, like “Suffer the children to come to Me” also has some of these hard sayings. If you listen to HIM, He talks about how some people don’t get to Heaven. (And if He’s God, He oughta know who makes it).
So it’s a conundrum.
Either Jesus is God (and if He is, then what He says must be true, and if there is a problem where we think He’s wrong, the problem must be with our understanding, and we need to bring our thoughts in line with His). . .
Or He isn’t. You think He isn’t. Which is in your case a reason to ignore the hard sayings because “He isn’t MY god”.
Well, if your God is the real one (whatever/whoever He might be), then He or she will understand why Christians are Christians and we’ll get in because universal salvation blah. . .
If our God is the real one, then He will also understand why people reject Him. He is merciful as well as just, so you can always hope; you just can’t ‘presume’.
And since I think you’d say the same to me: One of the hardest things for people to do is to acknowledge when they’re wrong. Though I can count the number of times I’ve been wrong on one hand (LOL), I know how hateful, distasteful, uncomfortable, and SMALL I felt when I was wrong. And quite often, there is the temptation, even when one KNOWS one is wrong, to ‘hold onto’ the wrong rather than admit being wrong, rather than having to undergo shame, ridicule, or the sick feeling that one has wasted one’s life on something wrong, even evil. And it is worse when one knows that the right thing was always there and one made fun of it because, well, the people who espoused it always seemed so weird, and the people one liked made fun of them, and one even was drawn to some of the things but knew that one would lose out. . .maybe one’s boyfriend would dump them, or one would lose out on a job. . .and it was so much work, and there were so many ‘good things’ in one’s own belief after all, and one had always believed. . . Yeah, but in all this ramble the main theme is:
When you die, you will see truth. And if you’ve been opposed to it all your life, don’t try to ‘hold onto your dignity’ or pride yourself that you ‘thought for yourself’ and refuse to admit you were wrong. It will hurt to know how wrong you were but for the love of God, don’t let pride keep you from saying, “Yep, I was 100% wrong when I rejected that God who wasn’t 'MY God” (when He really was), but I’m sorry, I don’t reject you now".