NFP1Kate
Presently, if I understand you, you are concerned that you are acting sinfully in Phase2. You come across as a dedicated Catholic who takes being obedient to Church teaching seriously - you practise NFP (where many Catholics do not) and now, being told you are acting sinfully, want to find out exactly what the Church has to say about what goes on in the privacy of your bedroom so that you can presumably also be obedient in that regard. You are having some difficulty finding solid ground wrt the latter. Your approach to eliminating this tension of not knowing is well summed up you say “With a great lack of direction in parishes, couples cannot live out their vocations correctly and fruitful.”
As you’ve opened more during this discussion an ambiguity has emerged. That is, you show great maturity and human insight, as others have noted, when you say “I don’t mind completely abstaining during phase 2. If I can’t finish, then I don’t want to start.” But then you later seem to say the opposite “If the intention is purely wanting to be together but refraining from intercourse, can we mess around a lot if we both don’t orgasm? I know that would drive most people crazy, but we like it.”
It seems you have come to the point that you accept that orgasm (male or female) is meant to be in the context of a procreative act and not even unitive purpose of conjugal sex can override that.
So looking at the above a few questions come to mind that it may be beneficial to look at more closely:
(1) Who actually wants so much sexual activity for the whole month, even in Phase 2?
- It starts out looking like your husband with you being the dutiful wife who, left to your own devices, would prefer not to start what cannot be finished.
- However you end up saying “we want to be intimate… I know that would drive most people crazy, but we like it.”
- I may be wrong but I do get an uncomfortable impression you are saying “we” but really mean “he.” “Deeply dishearted” also seems a lot of pressure to put on you (or to put unnecessarily upon yourself).
(2) How would the two of you define “lust.” At times we all have to keep our eating and drinking in moderation, and our legitimate irritations and anger. Sexual desire seems no different in this regard.
- Almost daily desire for ‘action” does seem excessive but maybe I am misreading this impression. When we love people we make sacrifices for them as the daily circumstances of life/nature “ask” that of us. Is abstinence in Phase2 (as would be required in times of sickness, absence etc) an impossibility?
- While the Church teaches that the free giving of conjugal rights to each other is in the nature of marriage I don’t believe that means it has to be in all particular cases/requests. Requests can at times be unreasonable or excessive.
(3) Why the great need for authority, for someone to tell you exactly what is right/wrong?
- As many have noted in different ways, the Church wisely seems to provide the principles and doesn’t get too much into detailed rules in the bedroom. As others have also noted, morality is a personal WIP (work-in-progress) in adult life. We learn mature ethics by doing, seeking info, praying,reflecting and then doing better. Gradually we shape a wise ethical character – we don’t simply learn more and more rules.
- In the end noone can fine tune the details for you. Only you two know what your true intentions are and where, in doubtful mattters, the practical boundaries lie that separate, for example, lust from love.
- “following the rules” is necessary, but noone said it is sufficient. I do not think adults are saved by “not breaking the rules.” That’s lawyer thinking!
(4) Sinfulness?
This is what seemd to spark your quest off - “The last few days I have been told that is sinful.” OK, so what. My father’s temper is sinful and he knows it and he worked on it every day of his life. Are we not in the Church because we know we are sinners who battle daily and need God’s mercy (and each others) NOT because we are (plaster) saints (“I keep the rules”) who have made it.
If at the end of the day you ocassionally find it is impossible to align your situation with Church teaching (and you keep trying your best) then I do not think you are on the outer. If you are then we all are in one way or another.
Sinful acts and mortal culpability are not the same thing. A direct connection between the two requires full intention/freedom, full understanding and “grave matter.” In the context of a loving marriage/NFP, excessive hormones and a desire to do the right thing … well you do the maths.