If I can suggest one line of meditation, ponder on the utter self-giving of the Christian (Catholic) Jesus. God will provide Himself the Lamb. Jesus has redeemed not just mankind but all of creation. He has also, in the Incarnation, united man with God. He is not God in a man-suit, but fully God and fully man. And just as He has a perfect divine Father in heaven, so His Father gave to Him a perfect human mother in a young Jewish maiden, Mary (whom Christ then gave to all of us as our perfect spiritual mother, just as He gives to us the Father – it’s all giving!). And Christ, who was perfectly obedient to His Father’s will, then left us with a Church which guards the faith He gave us without error. His plan is perfection upon perfection. In His love and mercy He took the worst evil that could be committed, the killing of God, and turned it into the greatest gift, eternal life united with God for all who seek it.
Wow! I’m ready to become Catholic all over again!
Just pray and ask for truth wherever it leads.
I read something along the lines of this. To the Jews alone in the world God revealed His identity, His name. Then to the followers of Christ alone He revealed His relationship to them. He is Father, Abba, Daddy. We are His children, adopted into His divine family and, in heaven, into His very divine nature.