Hey Lucy how are you? Firstly I think your asking a good question if I’m hearing you correctly. It’s that “how can God, who is all love send someone to hell for eternity for things done in this life? That seems unjust.” If I got it right I would answer in this way. God doesn’t want anyone to go to hell. Some people however are so obstinate that they reject God and by default end up there. God is Goodness, love, growth, order… He wants us to love Him (goodness) and each other in heaven for all eternity. Think of a school. It’s a good school that takes care of its students. The teachers are great, there are fun activities… just a nice place to be. Sometimes the other students make mistakes sure, but on the whole everyone is getting along, and good to each other. Now one or two students think it’s a great idea to just punch a fellow student in the head. No real reason, they just think it’s funny. The teacher disciplines the student to correct the behavior, but also to protect the other students. After being disciplined the student does it again. Then again. “Don’t tell me what to do”. “Don’t impose your worldview on me!” “A psychologist on tv told me I have a genetic predisposition to punching and YOU are denying me my biology!” The teachers and schoolmaster finally, after many, many, many, attempts to help this child, remove him from school. You simply can’t have students threatened in school every day. That isn’t just. They don’t want to, but they must maintain a loving environment.
This is obviously a simplistic example, but in a way it’s how I view God, trying to help us every which way. But we need to adapt to goodness, to grow, to learn. If we do this heaven awaits. If we just say “no I’m going to keep punching people and no one can tell me to stop” then eventually the school can’t keep us there. That is what sin is in a way. Being kicked out of school means your on the street with no protection, no future, no help. This isn’t what God wants at all, but again Heaven is a place of goodness, a place of purity, love, and order. If they let in people to hurt others then it wouldn’t be that way anymore. Do keep wrestling with questions and look to seek a God, you may find that He us more of what your looking for than you maybe think, I know I always have. Best regards, praying for you as well.