Esdra,
Thank you for posting this background. I am not familiar with you frm previous threads and this helps me to understand better.
In a nutshell your testimony speaks to what we so often here from those who have left the Church - Poor Catechesis. And to paraphrase Fulton Sheen, Thousands leave what they “think” is the Church…but they really don’t know…
With pleasure!
Praise God for your granny. She sounds like a wonderful influence. I had one just like her. She would clean the Church, wash and iron the priest’s vestments etc.
The concepts of the Eucharist and the Real presence are certainly difficult ones, even for adults. How much more for children.
Oh yes, she is a wonderful person. But actually, because of her (she was very authorative in catholic educating here 3 daughters) my mom left the Church… and secondly when mom had scattered on our priest at that time to renew our Parish (Charismatic Renewal) she then really had left.
I like talking to granny now and it is amazing how much she knows about Christ and the Church. But I never told her that I have converted (or better said: soon will be) - I don’t know how she would react… I guess she wasn’t to happy knowing from mom that she was in the Charismatic Renewal (Of course I only know that from stories dad and mom had told me). How would she react then if she found out that I am in a sect (and I guess in the eyes of most Catholics here in Austria the Baptists ARE a sect)
I have also attended the rosary with her for one and another time.

I really like the rosary - it is so meditative. I mean I don’t really believe in Mary as a link between the people and Jesus and so I also don’t believe that Mary (or any other Saint) can answer prayers - only Jesus can! But I love the rosary as a kind of meditation, like also praying before the real presence (meditative/repetative prayers which is so common in the CC) - although I have done least very seldom so far. Actually, I really miss all the “meditative stuff” in the Baptist Church…
And if the Baptists had not matched your personal interpretation would you have joined them? Or would you have continued to look for a group that matched your beliefs.
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Well, I haven’t thought about that. For me the fact that the Baptists believe the same than I do was a signt that I have been right, that the Holy Spirit has guided me really in understanding the Scriptures!
As I said a post earlier: My second choice would’ve been the Lutheran Church, although even there are a lot of cafeteria lutherans or even lutherans on the paper only (at least here in Austria).
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This same trouble of people being strong in their faith can be found in any denomination. In your case it stood out because, a) you were raised Catholic and b) because of it being a “Catholic Country” the Church was highly visible.
Yes, definitely. I mean a mass never touched me. I didn’t really know what was going on here. I mean I knew and know the rituals (the answers to the prayers of the priest, kneeling, standing up, Holy water and so on) but this never touched my heart. I couldn’t see Jesus in any mass nor in bread and wine. It was just more or less an obligation. You just do repetitavely what you know you have to do or better said what was expected. Later on, I tried to listen to the priest, what he was actually praying. - But I didn’t get it. I even didn’t get that these prayers are word by word from the Holy Bible (as I know from CAF in the meantime) I guess I have never understood the real meaning of the mass.
When I have become a Baptists, I have often visited masses with my family at the High feasts (like Christmas and Easter) and I have payed close attention to the Gospel Reading and the reading of the OT in the lesson and the sermon. This became really important for me when I have attended mass (or "word-service) in our Catholic parish (which in this case is the whole of our political community plus the neighbouring village!).
The funny thing is: When I have asked my dad (when he had gone to mass more regular and I was a very young Baptist): “What was the Gospel and what was the sermon about?” - he normally couldn’t answer. I guess he is kind of a sleep - and I have always had the feeling that nearly everybody is at sleep in mass. None pays attention! On the contrary in my Baptist Church: There are bibles in the Church and nearly everybody is reading the verses the Pastor or Elder uses in the Bible-reading or the sermon.
Yes, it is. In the meantime I know that she and her family were probably one of the few who are “real Catholics” in our parish. There were also rumours about this family in my village that Carinas mom ones phoned another former class-mate of mine and said that she had to draw out a demon of her… And other rumours. These rumours, I guess, are also one of the reasons, why they were seen insane and bigots.
Especially Medjugorje (HR) (what this family also has visited) is a “place for bigots and mentally ill”, as mom keeps saying.
It’s never too late to come home. It may well be, given your exposure growing up, that God led you out of the Catholic Church for a time (though if you are baptized Catholic you remain Catholic). Now he has brought you to CAF where you can get good strong Catholic Catechesis. …].
Well, I just have the feeling that Jesus wants me to have where I am now. He gave me a new family. Can I leave my family? They have already done so much good for me: They have encouraged me when I felt bad, they prayed for me and with me, they laughed together with me and shared my joy etc. We have read the bible together…
And sadly enough, I have never experienced something like that in the CC…
Esdra