I have been making positive hip hop music for two years. I have been making really Good hiphop beats on a program called Fruti Loops.
Latley i have been going through a problem. Im paranoid about everything, including Sin and my relationship with God. Because of this paranoia i have been having problems definning if i have been tempted, or i have sinned. I rebuke all foughts all the time but some of them hover in my mind for a while before im actually aware of the gravity of what im thinking about.
As a result, my mind is continuelly digging up past sins and things i had forgoten about. I have confessed all of them, but now there is one more problem, that i have confessed but not found resolve.
A few years ago my freind put a program called fruti loops on my computor. I also got an upgrade of the program for 5 pound, from a market stool that sold pirated copys.( They make copys from the original program, and sell it) I nolonger buy from this pirate stools, or download copyright material from those p2p programs.
My music program has enabled me and is helping me to make wounderfull music and get a positive message out to the youth, not to mention make me feel positive.
But because of this paranoia problem, i rememberd that i Got the program from my freind and also bought an illegal upgrade from a market stool.
I have deleated all the games and pirate movies i down loaded from the p2p program i used to have. But im reluctant to delete my music program and all my music, because im too poor to afford a new one, and it helps me to be positive and give out positivity to people.
Although i dont want to delete the program, i dont want to offend God and end up in hell. But i dont want to delete it if its not neccerary. please help me.
Is the devil trying to destroy my message? or is God trying to get me clean?