I know. Unfortunately, I’m not interested in starting my own church, Christ made one and that’s the one I need.
Hi, Bob!
Please do not misunderstand me… I’m not suggesting that you should start your own church or that you want to emulate Luther and his compadres; I was attempting to bridge your path with theirs…
It is more than proper to see ourselves as creatures/servants with low estimation… but it is not edifying to the Body of Christ to profess that man is beyond God’s Grace and Mercy or that God has somehow “fixed” Salvation so that man can only toil in his own vomit without recourse.
Does Christ give me the ability to overcome my imperfections, even if His father denies it?
…this is part of the melee that you’ve gotten yourself into… you continue to divide God into teams: the first, using Omnipotence against you while the latter, giving you only spiritual respite in a long-distant futuristic occurrence.
So how do I get around this? I ask to have my imperfections fixed, God says no but demands I be perfect anyway. I see this as unreasonable.
**How to overcome the imperfections **
so I can actually get closer to God? He doesn’t want me the way I am.
Bob, here’s what St. James tells us about our relationship with God:
1 What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? 2 You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God. 3 When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
(St. James 4:1-3)
Man’s struggles and battles are not simply just internal (self) and external (the world)… they are (as I believe yours is) against God. These battles and struggles keep us from receiving God’s Grace… we face up to God as our foe; we make demands; we make concessions; we make vows (promises); we break the same vows; we demand, as Israel, to have our own earthly kings and princes… to be allow self-governance… to be allowed to be free…
Yet, as St. James clarifies… all of our desires and our aspirations are motivated by the temporal… the motives are wrong because it is about self-love.
When we engage the world and its problems, every victory is our own (God has no place in it); when we face trouble, difficulties and failures, every single one of these we attribute to God’s lack of support, protection, and Providence.
…Mom struggled with ailments for many many years… not once did she ever complaint about her plight; when I would visit her during her hospital stays she was of the same spirit… while others around her would course God and even the people attending them… Mom would be praying the Rosary, Novenas, reading Scriptures… at home,on one occasion a new nurse came to see her; I opened the door, she walked in, saw Mom sitting on a recliner, dismissed her and began to look for the “patient.” As she entered the apartment she could see in three directions (Mom’s bedroom, the bathroom, the living room); as she took in the information a perplexed expression formed on her face: ‘…where’s the patient?’ I noticed and asked her if she was looking for the patient… she had a whimsical smile as she responded that she in deed was looking for the patient…
Bob, from her charts, the nurse could not connect Mom to the extremely ill patient to whom she was sent to tend!
…it was the same experience for the various Church members (Priests, Extra Ordinary Minister of the Eucharist and others)–none of them could understand how Mom could have such Peace… they thought that they were coming to raise the spirits of a sister that was ill and homebound… in reality, her testimony of Faith, her reliance on God’s Providence, and her Trust in Jesus uplifted them… her last EOME (who would visit her with his whole family) took me aside one time and told me that he was moving out of town (Mom would no longer be his responsibility)–he asked if he could still be Mom’s EOME; he felt a deep obligation to serve Mom…
Mom’s greatest need and desire was to serve God and to receive the Holy Eucharist: God had provided for both Mom and her Extra Ordinary Minister of the Eucharist and opportunity to Unite in the Body of Christ!
Mom offered all of her Life’s experiences to the Father, through Christ! Mom’s power was not above other human beings… she felt the same pain and oppression brought about by the various debilitating ailments that others suffer… the difference was that Mom allowed Christ to be her strength.
When we give ourselves to God’s Providence all the imperfections are melted away:
6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
(1 St. Peter 1:6-7)
Merry Christmas!
Maran atha!
Angel