Greetings Nickybr38,
As a child I felt very alone and isolated. I thought I was going crazy. Any idea of asking your parents whether they see x or y, and yet you can see x and y as plain as day, but your parents cannot? My childhood was very troubled becuase of things. I guess as I got older and began to discern things that there was no way of me finding out, my parents finally believed that I was seeing things and hearing things that no one could see or hear.
A great majority of my life, I prayed to God to take away this because I felt like I was cursed. I felt so alone and so alienated. One of the shows that I like very much is Paranormal Kids, I am not sure that it airs on A&E still. Also not everything they say on that show is in line with our faith, but at least they are reaching out to these kids with these gifts and showing them that they are not alone.
My parents put me through counseling and psychaitric care because they thought I was crazy. Doctor after doctor would tell them, there’s nothing wrong with me. They said that there were no mental illnesses or physical illnesses in my life. My parents still would not believe this, only recently did I hear my Mom say, the reason we kept taking you to different doctors and putting you on meds was because it was easier for us to believe you were crazy and we thought the medication would make it go away. We did not want to accept the truth of what you were saying.
I was crying to Mom that day and asked her did she know how much torment she put me through. The one thing that allowed me to forgive so easily, besides God’s grace, were the tears that instantly sprang to her eyes and overflowed. *
Since then I have done reserach into what was going on, and have meet several priests. And one thing led to another and here I am doing “The Work,” - I see why some people call it that.
Are there cases where this is in people’s imagination, Absolutely. But there are better ways of handling things. And disregaruding their expereiences is not one of them.
I think I can understand due to what happened to me as a child, as to why other Christians would do this to other Christians. Perhaps they want to believe it is someone’s imaginations becuase demons and evil are uncomfortable for them. Somehow a demon possessing or oppressing someone does not fit in with their understanding of God is love and peace. They see things in a very limited way. Your mind will do 2 things when presented with something, it will either accept it, or deny it. And if it denies it, your mind will do all sorts of neat little things that will keep you denying the truth. If one denies a truth, they are starting a trip down the slippery slope of insanity. For not to accept the truth is to embrace insanity.
There is a place for science. I support science whole heartedly. In fact doing the work, I do look and discern for natural causes first. But even if I do find a natural cause, I cannot dismiss things so readily. It takes much prayer, much fasting, much discerning, frequent Recourse to the Sacraments.
Wow, I don’t know why I went on like this, and as much as I wish not to post it, something inside is saying to hit post reply and there is peace about it. You know I have never shared this with anyone outside of my family and my spiritual director/confessor until now.
May God Bless all of us,
Anathama Sit*
Thank you for this.
I’m sure your testimony will touch many who read it. It’s just such a relief to hear about others who’ve had similar experiences. It brings hope. A lot of hope.
Last year I really struggled with; Why would God let me see the things He’s let me see? It was through CAF that I learned the use for people like you and I and that helped me a lot.
I’m sure there are others out there who are struggling who will find this place and find comfort.
