Everyone wants a redo on life to some aspect Jovian,
though being 20, you have a better chance at changing your life than me as I am now in my early 40s. Time doesn’t favor those who are aging . So competitively speaking from a hiring stand point,99% of the time I am going to get passed up for a job as a new hire versus someone like yourself who is 20. It shouldn’t be like that, but reality is different than this gushy life is just so peachy keen an great attitude and just hang in there it will get better.
You want a reliable friend that wont let ya down ever, getting a Dog ( if you are not allergic and can handle the responsiblity ) is the best answer, plenty of dogs in need of real rescuing from a Pound, or no kill shelter. More over they require physical activity , which in turn leads to eventually bumping into someone who also is a dog owner.
Anyhow Jovian, hope things turn around for you sooner than later, I’d trade my problems for yours any day of the week.
An ya don’t really let anyone down until you completely stop trying to make your life better. or someone elses. As long as you do something once a week to better yourself, you are at least trying.
I do agree though, 1998, heck all of the 90s was just flipping awesome sauce. Started hating life right when 2000 came rolling in , and the future doesn’t seem to be getting any better.
