The son (recognising that the words of his answer were being given him by the Lord made heedful reply to the father saying: "Tell me, father, if thou deignest to do so, with what diligence thy body, while it could, obeyed thy behests? âI bear it witness, my son,â answered Francis, "that it has been obedient in all things and has spared itself in nothing but has (as it were) rushed headlong to obey all commands. It has shirked no toil, has refused no discomfort, if only it might do as it was bid. Herein have I and it been in perfect agreement, that we should serve Christ the Lord without any reluctance. "And the brother said: âWhere, then, father, is thy liberality? where thy compassion and thine eminent discretion? Is it a worthy rewarding of faithful friends to accept a kindness gladly, and then in the time of his need not to requite the giverâs merit? How couldâst thou have served Christ thy Lord all this time without the help of the body? Has it not, as thou thyself allowest, exposed itself to every danger, for the sake of this very thing?â âI confess, my son,â said the father, âthat this is most true.â Then said the son: âIs it reasonable that thou shouldest be wanting to such great need to so faithful a friend who has for thy sake exposed himself and what is his even unto death? Be it far from thee, father, stay and staff of the afflicted; be this sin against the Lord far from thee.â âBlessed be thou, also, my son,â he answered, âwho hast wisely ministered such salutary remedies to my scruples.â And he began joyfully to address his body thus: âRejoice, brother body, and forgive me, for behold now I gladly fulfil thy desires, and gladly hasten to attend to thy complaints.â But what could delight his frail and exhausted body now? What could sustain that which had given way on every side? Francis was now dead to the world, but Christ was living in him. The worldâs delights were a cross to him, because he bore Christâs cross rooted in his heart. And therefore did the stigmata shine outwardly in his flesh because within that deeply planted root was sprouting in his mind.
Now we see that Brother Francis is apologizing for his extremity of lack of care in sustaining the body, not for the whole of what he did which was for merit, penance, and mortification especially preventing indulging the passions from causing him to sin. It is not an apologetic for his entire past denying its virtues, only that he should also have done more to sustain the body since it was actually formed in obedience to him.
And this can be seen clearly because the Rule you complain being too strict is still the rule he embraces and gives, unaltered to the his children -after- making this repentance. He still embraces his daughters, his pains.
Let us hear what happens
after this apology to his body.
âIt was wonderful that his strength held out to bear the sufferings in every part which had so exhausted him. But these, his distresses, he described by the name not of pains but of âsistersâ.â
You see, it is after.

St. Bonaventureâs relation is correct.
"But the strongest reason for his torments I take to be that (as he himself used to say concerning others) in the bearing of them âthere is great reward.)â
Which is as I said, in the beginning before this became disputed. Kneeling to bear some pains in the legs, is a great reward before God in the next life. Perhaps in this case it would be bad, perhaps it would be not, it is a discernment for each case whether it does more harm than good or not.
Let us continue Celanoâs biography:
**The Lord Himself speaks to St. Francis, âIf the whole bulk of the earth and machine of the world were gold beyond price, and if in exchange for the heavy sufferings thou art enduring all thy pain were removed, and there were given thee for a reward a treasure of glory in comparison whereof the aforesaid gold should be nothing, and unworthy even to be named, wouldst not thou rejoice and gladly bear what thou art bearing now?â
âI should rejoice indeed, yea and above measure I should rejoice.â said St. Francis
âExult, then,â said the Lord, âfor thy sickness is the earnest of My kingdom, and do thou, secure and confident through the merit of patience, await the inheritance of that kingdom.â **
Then it was that he composed certain âPraises concerning the creaturesâ inciting them in some sort of praise to the Creator.
Not long thereafter, worn out by his sufferings he bade his brothers lay him naked on the ground for his death. His garment of sackcloth was removed. . (a mortification he did not deny, but merely gave up as part of giving as he says out loud, to return it to the order he had it on loan from). . .
He raised his face to heaven, and says, âI have done my duty, may Christ teach you yours.â
He then speaks of many things about poverty, death, and affection for God. He blesses all the world. . . He blesses bread and breaks it. . ."
And it is as St. Bonaventure relates is. Glory to God for painful mortifications for greater merit.
Thank you very much for the St. Isaac the Syrian quote, it is a very good one for thought and meditation.