Thank all of you for your prayers.
While the depression is still there, the defeatism has been managed for now. I can work with that.
Anyway, the purpose of my update is this: my wife and I had a rather odd, if fruitful, conversation yesterday.
We both had the day off, and we made a “date” of it after going to a last-minute appointment at the oncologist’s office (more tests were done, and she was referred to a physical therapy program). We got bubble tea and a $5 pizza, then went home and spent the rest of the afternoon playing Pokemon and watching videos.
The game we were playing afforded the opportunity for a conversation about culture, social structure, and typology (she made an initial comment reflecting on something in the game). In which, I reiterated to her what I had many times before, that the Church is the New Israel. However, this time, I also connected this to the reverence with which the Orthodox and Catholic Churches treat Mary, explaining that the pattern for the treatment of Mary isn’t taken from paganism, but from the ancient Israelite treatment of the king’s mother. After I explained things this way, she said that the Catholic understanding of Mary makes more sense now.