Exactly. You lived as though it were true, and gradually you came to understand that it is true.
This is NOT what I said and I did not pretend to believe it to be true, I did believe it but I did NOT “know” it to be true.
I would say that there is a difference between believing something and pretending to believe it and “pretending to believe something” is what it seems that “Pascal’s Wager” is to me, although I could be wrong.
I did NOT “gradually” come “to understand that it is true”, it was quicker than instantaneous that I “knew” when I realized that it was God the Father in my heart.
It was “gradual”, I would say a couple of hours maybe, that I came to realize that it was God the Father in my heart.
Actually, when God revealed Himself to me, I wasn’t asking for anything of that nature, what I was asking for was mercy.
As it is written, “God works in mysterious ways”.
I would say that “God is a searcher of hearts and minds, not of religious affiliations or lack thereof”.
There are some who do not believe in God that are doing God’s Will in their life better than some who do believe in God.
Question: If one were going to pretend to believe, why not go a little farther and “pray” to God for “belief”?