Hi everyone…
It’s a simple question really…what if:
You cannot reconcile your conscience with church teaching?
and you:
know you are morally obliged to follow you conscience (at all times?)
have fully, or to the best of your ability, informed your conscience
have read book after book and tried discussing this issue around other topics
have gone away from the forums for months to think and still feel the same way, but know that the church does not teach how you feel you should act on an issue
I’ve left the issue I’m thinking of as a blank as in a way it’s kinda not relevent to the question… but I don’t mind if anyone needs to know to answer me better or if anyone PM’s me… and also I guess a lot of people struggle to unify their own thoughts with the church’s… what do you do if you cannot do this? What happens if you never manage it and should follow your conscience?
Thanks a lot,
S
My answer here is probably rediculously simplistic, but I’ll put it out there anyway. I didn’t become a Catholic until I was 48 years old, and had struggles with almost every major dogmatic principle of the RCC for my whole life. Once I began the road to conversion, and got past the basics of the Trinity, the roll of Christ in the Trinity, the roll of the Church in Christ’s Kingdom etc. etc., then frankly most of my doubts and struggles started to go away just from reason and study etc… It sounds like you’ve already gotten that far. Then I prayed a great deal for God to open up my mind to the rest of the issues that I had as stumbling blocks. (I can’t stress the importance of prayer enough). It finally came down to trust/faith. Everytime I asked the Holy Spirit to help me reason through a concept, I would finally arrive at what resignated as the truth. If I was honest with myself, then it generally coincided with the Church teachings anyway.
I had to have faith that Jesus IS God. If he is God, then he told the truth about instituting His Church and how important that Church was in the grand scheme of things. That He instituted it, left the Holy Sprit with it, and that in spite of human misbehavior, and free will, it has been faithfully passed on, as promised for more than 2000 years. When I looked at the big picture. That the Lord’s very own Apostles, and the Church fathers, and saints down through the centuries have eagerly laid down their lives for these truths, then I could trust in God for the few issues that were left, that I couldn’t completely embrace, because His Church embraced it. I’m not completely sure why our “conscience” sometimes tries to trump over the truth. I suspect it’s from the exagerated sense of self-importance that we are unfortunately raised with, and the philosophy of relativism that runs rampant in the modern world. It’s a virulent and poisonous philosophy that has caused much more harm than good in the world.
Start with the premise that Jesus is Lord. The only begotten son of God. He told the truth always. All of the Church’s teachings are derived from the full faith and loyalty to our Lord and Saviour without exception. Any areas that were grey as man progressed were dealt with through magesterium and councils resulting in dogmatic declarative statements of truth. No dogma was ever arrived at lightly. They are, after all, declarative statements which must be deduced from the Word of God.
Study the Word of God. Study Church history. Study the Church Fathers. Study Aquinas and other theologians. I think you’ll find that the more you look into a particular concept, the more you’ll agree with the Church’s stance. The more your “conscience” will be assuaged by the truth. Above all…
Trust and believe in the Lord. Even when it hurts.
Ask God to relieve you of the heartache and misery that is relativism. It has been a crippling and unfortunate philosophy which will take a long time to pull out of.
The Church is unafraid of scrutiny. Study away, but do please try to see how one thing links to the next. Follow each link until you arrive at teaching from the Lord. It all makes sense, if you try to just take in a little bit at a time, and then trace each concept back to it’s origin in the word of God.
You must have unflinching courage, to hear answers, even when they’re hard, and hurt. Many of them are that way. It’s because of our relativist upbringing and our egos.
Faith…deep, abiding, trusting and innocent faith.
Christ be with you,
Steven