I’m not Catholic…Yet??
I fell in love with the Catholic church last year after 60 years of growing up in conservative Protestantism. My journey to the liturgy and then Catholic theology led began, unbeknownst to me, many years ago, when I adopted a verse from the 42nd (Protestant version) Psalm. I memorized in in King James and can’t seem to shake it. It says, “As the hart pants after the water brooks, so pants my soul after thee O God.”
Nearly 8 years ago I was hungering for a deeper walk with God. I stumbled across Phyllis Tickle’s set of books called Praying the Hours. I became hooked. I fell in love with liturgical praying. Then a little over a year ago the Presbyterian church I attend studied the 40 Days of Purpose by Rick Warren. My hunger grew. One day after my second journey through his book I looked up some of the references he had and discovered a book by Gary Thomas called Sacred Pathways. It is a book about the traditions of the early church fathers. I began to learn about how God used the great saints of the early church. I happened to watch EWTN one night when Scott Hahn was speaking. I bought his book and my journey really began in earnest. I can’t get enough. I followed that up with Karl Keating’s great work on Catholicism and Fundamentalism. I snuck into a Catholic bookstore and found more literature. I bought the Magnificat and Rosary beads and have been daily praying with them ever since. The proprietor talked me into going to Ash Wednesday Mass. This timid Protestent went. Boy, did I feel out of place! I never endured so much confusion, noise and lousy singing and preaching. The homily sucked. At least to me it sucked. I actually allowed myself to be dusted, excuse me, ashed, and went away strangely moved.
Since then I’ve listened to as much of EWTN as possible, all the Catholic Answers broadcasts I can and divoured books galor.
Am I begoming a Catholic? I don’t know yet. There is much to learn and overcome. I’m not convinced yet. But I admit, I thirst.
I apologize for the lengthy testimony, but needed to share it.
I’m not hung up on the most popular issues most Protestants face. I’m more concerned is how does Catholicism affect my daily behavior toward God and my neighbor. One of my biggest criticisms at the moment is sometimes I get the feeling Catholics are more concerned about preserving the structure and polity of the church than ministering Christ to the general public. Also, driving through all the differing opinions of Catholic theology in the church is confusing. Sometimes I wonder if there aren’t as many schisms in the Catholic community as there is in the Protestant community. So that is where I am. I love you all and am head over heals in love with my Saviour. He is my all in all and I can’t get enough of Him.
Blessings to you.
Thirsty