Why are you giving permission for satan to destroy your soul? All these excuses you are trotting out. Have you ever had to quit an addiction. Ie smoking, drugs, alcohol, chocolate, social media etc.
Surely you have enough strength of character to pray through those times? Or do you allow satan to remove that too.
And guess what! There is always the Sacrament of Confession when we fail. So go, confess.
Jesus Christ defeated satan by His Passion and Crucifixion and Resurrection.
End of story, there is no negotiation, or forgiveness for satan. None.