God bless you. I am sure that too many people have already told you they admire you and look up to you, but I do too. I am so happy that so many are able to unite their cross to the Lord’s suffering.
I am so happy you accept and support what the Catechism of the Catholic Church says on this specific topic. I hope you know that the Church has NO issue with celibate people who have same sex attraction. We both agree that Church doctrine rightfully condemns homosexual acts, but no discrimination or contempt should ever be shown towards celibate Christians who have this cross.
Personally, if I had this cross, I would not use the term ‘gay’, because it defines one by their sexual appetite. I hope nobody looks down on you for having an attraction that is not a sin, considering you are living chastely.
I am a teenager in a world that is so hard to be chaste in. Do you ever ‘fall down and get back up again’ with chastity, so to speak or do you by the grace of God manage to never give in?
Regardless, you must be so very holy.
Unfortunately, with scrupulosity, I find it VERY difficult to discern what violates chastity and what does not, leading me to going to extraordinary lengths to prevent myself from possibly violating chastity. Thus, I do have the awful cross of scrupulosity.
I hope you will be an asset to the Church and will oppose attempts to liberalise Church doctrine. Although the priesthood is not suitable, perhaps you may have ministry as a eucharistic minister or instructor of the faith (presuming the Church allows people with this cross to have ministry as a layperson?).
I am so glad you have recognised your cross, and are taking an active stance against those who try to liberalise Church doctrine, which is God’s will.
Know that you will be rewarded in heaven.
May God always bless you.