Mist of which are irrelevant to the claim I am making. e.g. I do not have a problem with Catholic social teaching or liturgy or even with spirityla practices.
It’s good that you don’t have a problem with those things.
I should mention that my point is not to say that you’re ignorant or anything like that. I’m not trying to get into a contest about who knows more about what … that’s not the point I’m getting at.
The reason it’s important to grow in knowledge of Catholic studies is because each subject area confirms and strengthens evidence in the existence of God.
If for, example, a person only knows only basic catechism teaching (which is very good to know), he knows nothing about the lives of thousands of Catholic saints. He may know nothing about the mystical/spiritual teaching of St. John of the Cross, for example. He may know nothing about the spiritual teachings of the founders of religious orders – how their rule of life taught people.
Most importantly, regarding spiritual practice – Catholic teaching is not just about “knowing what the practice is” but actually “doing” the practice. You actually have to work at it and improve over time. That’s part of the learning. This learning teaches about the truth that God does exist.
So, I question – how could a Catholic who has become mature and good at Catholic spiritual practice, the practice of virtue, the efficacy of prayer – end up as an atheist?
I’ll say, it’s a very rare thing indeed.
The claim that you’re making is that “your conscience tells you to be an atheist”.
My questions to you are an attempt to see if that is correct. If you deceive yourself about your knowledge of Catholicism (which it seems to me that you have), then could you also be deceiving yourself about what you think your conscience is saying?
Self-deception is the enemy of a clear conscience. You have to be brutally honest with yourself. That means, when you say something about yourself in a public forum like this, you should be saying things that are humble, clear, very honest and truthful.
If you did that, then there’s a good chance that your “inner dialogue” with yourself and your conscience is also very honest.
Because that’s the struggle with conscience that we all have. Our conscience often tells us something we don’t want to hear. Then, we have to realize that we did something wrong, etc. But to get to that point, we usually question our conscience. Could that be right? Did I really do something wrong?
That questioning requires a lot of honesty and sometimes courage.
I’m not trying to insult your intelligence or anything like that.
To answer your previous question, I’ve been studying Catholic teaching for over 35 years and I don’t think I really know more than 1% of the wealth of knowledge that is available.
But every bit of knowledge that I gain only strengthens my conviction that God truly exists, He loves us, He is involved in every detail of our life and if we communicate with Him, He will reveal his love and care for us.