This is the most honest and coherent post you have made … yes, you are a protesting Christian …
You are protesting 1500 years of Christian belief …
You are protesting our God given Free Will … our freedom to chose to turn towards God or away from God … [you actually echo what a presbyterian professor once stated in my Pauline Scriptures Studies class in graduate school … he stated that “saving faith was like a telephone … since God knows from eternity who will answer [pick up the phone] when he calls, he does not need to make the phone ring for those who don’t answer”] …
You are protesting the Body of Blood of Christ … the Cup of Blessing that is Blessed … the Participation in the Death adn Resurrection of Christ … and you may being doing this to your peril [not for me to judge … that is for God alone … but the scriptures give us that warning] …
You are protesting the Church established by Christ and the unity that is professed and expressed by Paul when he writes to the "Church in ____ " PAul never writes to “the _____ Church” as if it is distinct in belief, faith or practice …
You are protesting against Christ’s command to partake of the Eucharist [His Body and Blood] the very Felsh and Blood which comes down from heaven for Eternal Life …