OddBird “I’m not giving up, although sometimes I wish I would, because I can hardly bear to see my husband hurting so much because of me.”
TNManWife still isn’t on board at all. Has said repeatedly she wants us unified for our daughter’s sake.
The pain of separate confessions is indeed real and I am not even at a point where discussion with my spouse can be entertained. It is just too traumatic. But I pray every day that we might return to a unity of faith in truth. I must admit I have real hope that those prayers are being answered. But there is a long long way to go.
If we are to follow where truth leads, then we cant allow it to be dependent on others views, understandings or conveniences. In these matters of faith, for us, there is a schism in the one flesh of marriage which is the painful part. Despite the sadness and/or frustration that comes with it, In my prayer, I thank God for it, cos I would not have it any different. It has forced me to know more about my faith, to grow my relationship with Him and be even more “dependent” on Him. I am completely at His mercy in this regard and every little comfort that comes my way is a joyful acknowledgement that He is carrying me. I pray not to be brought to further test - but If i am I pray for the strength to trust only Him.
I find the second verse of John Talbots hymn is where some of us might be:
. It brings tears streaming every time it is sung at mass.
God bless and many prayers that He continues to work in each of our lives - to His greater glory.