I guess I’m the odd one out. Although I believed in God and went to Catholic schools for 20 years, due to personal reasons, I didn’t feel invested in it. Watching the Shroud of Turin 2 years ago had a very strong impact on me because I have come to believe in its authenticity and a miracle that we are all privileged to see.
But despite that, although I knew of the concept of the Devil, I never really internalized and accepted it. The recent abuse scandals otoh had such a profound effect on me in making me accept and believe in the Devil and Satan. Previously, I never really truly believed the existed. They were abstract notions far from me, superstition even. I have this very strong feeling that the problems with the Church, the abuses inside, and the attacks and bigotry in Western countries comes from the Devil. And it’s strange but I believe this so strongly and it was like a sudden realization and fear. Believing this has brought me back and even much closer to the Church, to God, as if He was calling me home to my family and to defend it in prayer, example, and to have a relationship with my Church.
So I wonder if others have had this calling, this calling to defend the Church because of these abuses and have an inherent feeling that the Devil is behind this? I have been praying so much, the rosary daily, and the one inherent pivotal focus of my prayer is THE CHURCH.
Strangely, I also have a feeling that what is happening can also benefit the Church in purifying itself so that it may lead in its campaign to fight the evil in so many institutions. Because this issue is prevalent and even a lot worse in other institutions and I think the Church, the first among all others needs this purification to lead us in purging our culture of the evil that has seeped into everything, us as individuals and as a community included. So we may need to ‘clean our room’ first before we clean others.