Oh yes, sometimes while at Adoration I just kneel there and thank Him for loving the way He does. I would so like to have a heart like His, one of my favorite prayers is: Make my heart like unto thine. I know I will never attain that, but I would so love to love others as He does.
Another reason I am grateful for the gift of life is because of all the love, beauty and just breath-taking things of God that I have witnessed, experienced and shared with others because of His love for us. My family, parents, my grandmother, sisters and brothers, aunts, uncles, cousins, etcā¦my friends, the Priests and Sisters that taught me, being a daughter, grand daughter,sister, neice, friend, aunt, God mother, wife, mother, sister-in-law, and grandmother.
I have always been drawn to the things of His creation, most of all people of course, (then animals) butā¦ the sunrises, sunsets, mountains, oceans, rainbows, waterfalls, stars, flowers, deserts, hills, lakes, you name it, if God created it, I have enjoyed looking at it, swimming in it, boating in it, skiing on it, gazing at it, just being able to share His creation with others.
Once when I was about 3 years old I found a tiny bunch of flowers (I believe they were called blue bells), growing under a large plant (older children and adults hadnāt seen them), because they were hidden by the plant and unless you were as small as I was then they went unnoticedā¦ I ran to get my mother to show her, she saidā¦āIsnāt God good, he planted those there just for you!ā I always believed that, still do. He is so good!! He has given me the gift of that memory and of still hearing her voice, even though she has long passed on. I believe the reason why that particular memory made such an impression on me is because it was really the first time that I believed, or perhaps understood that God really did love me. He has given me the gift of so many other beautiful memories too and has made my life complete. I am so grateful to God for so many reasons.
I would still obey His commandments because I wouldnāt want to offend Him, (but I am sure I do several time daily, by my thoughts, words, deeds, and deeds left undone.)
Even with all the pain, sadness, and at times feeling broken hearted for various reasons, especially when ālosingā loved ones, this world does at times seem like heaven on earth, thanks be to our good Lord and the Blessed Mother, the angels and saints, all who have been my life long companions. Butā¦I do hope and believe there is more.
