“But I am not led back to the RCC at this time.
I am not resisting any prompting what so ever.
I do not know what the future holds, but I will say, for me to accept the teachings of the RCC, there has to be a tremendous change in either me or the RCC. And I don’t think the RCC has any plans of changing anything.”
I am happy that you are not resisting. Many are… many are resisting all kinds of things even when they have given everything over by word of mouth. But the Lord knows our frailty.
I know that one cannot, no matter how much one struggles, accept anything. Acceptance of truth is always by grace. We must continually pray that we do not run ten steps in front of Jesus but that we listen to Him… listening may not always be pleasant… Indeed, one of His most hard and serious words are these: “Die to yourself… loose your life…” is it not so, that even when we choose a Church we look not always at the truth but rather on the feel-good…
I have many times indulged in missions which were self-appointed but at the time I was pretending to serve the Lord, whereas in reality I was the one who was being satisfied on whatever I thought to be satisfying at that moment. But my work was not effective… the Lord waited and is still waiting for me to mature…
I believe these are common temptations.
But we must all recognize that the Lord is the one we serve and that we will recognize what He says is true… not what we feel is true… Indeed, if Jesus said that the moon was a green cheese then would you believe Him? Yes?.. me too, for sure! Jesus knows better even than all what we think we know… I am sure we will all get a mighty shock one day when He lets us know about all our folly.
But all that aside. This is the whole truth… is it okay to be a bit honest here tonight? (I know I am asking a bit late)… the fact is that we need you. Yes, exactly you… and also your brothers, our brothers. How can the Church ever be healed when the wounds are left open. We need your gifts, your love, your knowledge. Now this is the truth: No church in the world will work as well as it was intended to as long as there is division among the brothers. Oh yes, and you need us. We need each other badly. So keep on praying with total openess… pray for us, brother, and pray for you and pray for unity.
Now I definately have to go… <><
Sorry about my spelling (English is not my mother tongue